first two days on the job

June 9, 2010
on the first day, exhausted from sitting there and listening to presentation after presentation, i leave the rehab center. as i'm sitting outside in the sun...listening to my iPod, waiting for my dad, and frustrated that he wasn't outside waiting for me, at the corner of my eye..i see a child..in a wheelchair just sitting by the garden. i also see a group of children waiting for the bus after school. and so what, you may ask? sitting there, in the sun, with a billion things going on in my head, i realized...how simple life COULD be and SHOULD be. it also made me realize how lucky i was. to be able to what i can do...walk, talk, drive, have a job, go out with friends...all of which could be taken away in a snap. and how lucky i am to have an opportunity to do..anything and everything, all the possibilities, without limitations or challenges.
i mean...i get angry at my dad for not being there when i'm done work...these petty things are ....well..petty. and if i didn't get mad, and i just sat there outside...by the garden, hours and hours and hours, without the iPod, without the cellphone, how bare it would be and how simple life would be in that moment. we truly take for granted many many things in life. living it in a downtown pace, fast, efficient and unpleasant. we could really learn a lot from these people and kids.
on the second day of orientation, there were many different stories shared. one about how it would feel to be the parent of a disabled child. she said...having a baby..is like an exciting trip to italy. so for those nine months of anticipation for the trip, you plan and plan all the places you'll go. all the sites, learn different phrases and pick up different books on Italy. and so...when it's time to go...you get on the airplane, sitting in anticipation and excitement, and the flight attendant says "welcome to holland". at first, you're confused, and shortly after, angry. but you stay in holland, because that's your only option, and you slowly but surely begin to enjoy it. after a few years, you start to notice that they have tulips..or windmills...or the cute houses. and while everyone is bragging about their fancy trip to Italy, you're in Holland. it's not bad, it's not disgusting...it's just...different. and in Holland, you really get a chance to catch your breath and enjoy the simple pleasures of life. well said.
another analogy that someone said was...imagine going out with your friends to a mall after school. you get to sit in the foodcourt and choose what you want to eat and what you want to buy. someone who is in a wheelchair, has to catch a special bus, and will never be able to go to a mall and choose what they want to eat. truly, these are the things we take for granted.

that being said, this has only been two days, and i've already started thinking and reflecting. this is going to be a crazy summer.
 

i officially dub you "intellectually disabled"

May 11, 2010
it astonishes me to still see people making fun of chinese people. "CHINKY EYES" or "WIDESCREEN VIEW". first off, CHINKY eyes is offensive. referring to CHINESE as CHINKS is a racial slur. secondly, CHINKY EYES is not the equivalent of small or slanty eyes, it refers to the eyes of a Chinese. this assumes that all Chinese people have small and slanty eyes, and it's funny because people use it on any asian, regardless of how big their eyes are. thirdly, people of all races have different sized...
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i hate customers

May 2, 2010
after years after years of working in the customer service, i can honestly, and accurately say that customers suck. i mean, of course, there are those exceptions, however, the majority of the customers are rude, inconsiderate and incredibly stupid.
customers are not always right. let me repeat that...customers are not always right. do not complain to me about the price, does it look like i can change it? no. if i could, that would suggest that i have power, and if i had power, do you think i ...
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why

April 19, 2010
why does it kinda feel like i have no friends.
maybe it's cause all i've been doing is studying...but i kinda feel like i'm just a study partner now.


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reality

March 25, 2010
the other day, i was confronted by a friend. she said i had an eating disorder.
weird. i never thought of it that way. isn't it normal to eat less because of stress?
i understood that i have body dysmorphic disorder, but who doesn't? now a days, isn't it normal to think you're not skinny enough? or pretty enough? you can ask any girl or boy out there if they were to change something in their body, would they? the answer would most probably be yes. and isn't that because the most critical pers...
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one of those days...

February 26, 2010
It's one of those days..when you question why you're even in nursing in the first place. Is it for the job? Is it for the money? Is it because you genuinely want to save and help people? anyways, today was just an accumulation of problems. from the patient, to the assignments and evaluation. maybe i'm just like this because i got my first ever unsatisfactory..but still. I feel so defeated from this one assignment for some reason. I feel like this is the only course in nursing that is importan...
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non floppers

February 19, 2010
it's been a while..fellow, if any, readers : D
my apologies. haha anyways, it is now reading week, literally spending the last few days reading. Just yesturday, I came back from Niagara Falls...with my friends! I can honestly say, I was pleasantly surprised to see this "dream" of mine coming to life...as...most of the time, these things always seem to flop.
FLOP: to not follow through with a plan
FLOPPER: someone who does not follow through with a plan
Anyways, I am very glad it happened..the fac...
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miss perfect 10

January 17, 2010
so..as i was walking down the hallway of ryerson, i saw an ad for the pageant "miss perfect 10". i always seem to be interested in it, and no, it's not because i think i could win, i just think it'd be fun to get dolled up and pretty. and i'm sure every girl has some sort of wish to be in one of those. anyways i read the requirments for it, and you need a talent. so..i thought long and hard about my talent...and that's when i realized that i had none. sure, i can strum a tune on the guitar, i...
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shopaholic?

January 8, 2010
so...today i realized that i'm a shopaholic. i like to buy clothes ...lots of it..and even if i don't need it. but it's not like i over indulge with expensive things, i like to buy things in staple. i think it all started on day..after going to school..having a bad week..i was thinking.."i should treat myself." and that's when i turned to shopping. I love the thought of having something new to wear. MAYBE it's because when i was small, i'd always have to wear hand-me-downs....even from my bro...
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so true...

January 5, 2010
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet"
- William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, 2.2

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