It's one of those days..when you question why you're even in nursing in the first place. Is it for the job? Is it for the money? Is it because you genuinely want to save and help people? anyways, today was just an accumulation of problems. from the patient, to the assignments and evaluation. maybe i'm just like this because i got my first ever unsatisfactory..but still. I feel so defeated from this one assignment for some reason. I feel like this is the only course in nursing that is important and I actually excel in it too...until now. but then i question why i feel so defeated when the most important part of nursing is the practice part. i mean yes, a paper is a great way to evaluate your thinking..however I don't think it justifies the practice of nursing. I can critically think. I critically think everyday, if i didn't, i'm pretty sure my patient would be dead by now. achhh! i'm just bitter.. even though this doesn't mean i fail the course, i just feel so crappy.
then i question the rest of the system for nursing. i'm pretty sure they're using nursing students to get work done. I mean..seriously..what is the point of doing community nursing in third year, when you already have been taught all the skills for the hospital.
and then i question the world. most of the world still view nursing as a low status job. people ask..WHY NOT BE A DOCTOR? why? because i genuinely want to help people, and to be a doctor..who only steps in to diagnose for a few seconds..is not really helping. a nurse stays with the patient. the nurse knows the patient..reads the patient like a book.
a nurse knows a crazy amount of information. we need to study the pathology and etiology, the drugs that go with it and why, the signs and symptoms, treatments, and on top of that, we do need to learn the actual skills for practice. so why do people still look down on nurses?